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K Is For Keith

This was one of the most intense, emotional and dramatic movies I've ever watched. And trust me - I watched A LOT of movies. The first thing that I have to especially emphasize here is what a great story line this movie has. It may seem like a cliche or a subject that really has nothing to do with life, but the matter of fact it does have a lot to do with life and what we experience in it. In the beginning, the story is focused on this young girl Natalie that is successful as in the school field as the tennis court. She is like one of those perfect girls that you're so jealous and envious of because they seem to have they life so organized. But the best thing in this movie is that it shows how you never know what someone has to go through, what battle they are fighting. The only thing we see is the surface and what people let us see. And the secret is that people don't let us in or close enough to let us see what's really behind all those successful stories, because failure or some mistakes always fit in. And most of the time people are afraid to let us in because that means they are exposed to us, their current life is opened to us and basically they are vulnerable. And too many people take advantage of that.

Anyway, like I said, even though it seemed like Natalie had her life already figured it out, later it appeared it was far from it. Why? Well, one of the most basic traits a successful person has is that they can handle stress and pressure when things get real. And for one, Natalie did not possess that just yet. That doesn't necessarily mean she couldn't handle it entirely, but some things could throw her off in a second. The thing that really changed her life was this kid named Keith, as you probably imagined already. They met by "planned coincidence" since Keith sort of planned their whole encounter in Chemistry class where they were lab partners. Such a cliche situation and a place to meet a person that is going to turn your world upside down, right? Of course, we never really know who and when somebody's going to change our lives. I believe each person we know affects our lives on a daily basis. Because without those people that are in our acquaintance our days would be significantly different. Our lives are like a scrapbook of little, small things that might go pass our vision so quickly we don't devote them much attention, but when we look back we sort of find out they are the reason everything's changed. It's enough that our brains recognize it just for a moment and it can all be different from that point on.
That's how when Natalie devoted a tiny bit of attention to "the weird Chemistry kid", she found out how interesting, intelligent and weird he was. But that didn't stop us. That's when I realized how smart Natalie actually was. Most people leave the things they don't know, therefore can't explain, alone and don't want anything to do with them ever again. But Natalie was not like the majority of people. She decided (probably subconsciously) to give Keith a chance. She craved to know more; more about his story and the whole meaning behind the yellow truck. It was an adventure reaching its hand out directly for her and she'd be foolish to turn it out.

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But sometimes wanting and accepting a challenge like this can take us to heights we no longer know the way down. When we lose ourselves in the rush of data, information and facts we don't know what to do with, and it's also too late to try to figure that one out. Because you're already halfway to hell. Maybe Keith didn't want Natalie to come this close to him. Well, he made that pretty sure, but what could he expect of a teenage girl? Of course she'll wonder and you won't leave her mind alone until she's got a settled opinion about you based on her beliefs and a guarantee that her theory is the correct one. Of course she'll go all the way to the bitter end with you. And she will stand by you. But when we're in love we do some silly and spontaneous things we didn't originally planned and didn't even want to happen. But that's the funny thing about friendships and relationships: love just happens. It takes only a few seconds of "too much thinking" of someone and then they won't leave your head until you see them again and make sure they're okay and to see their reaction to when they finally see you, too. The bitter part of love is also that we sometimes have too high expectations. The main doubt in relationships is if we are receiving the same amount of love as we are giving it out ourselves. If we are receiving the same amount of effort.
That's clearly not the point here. Because I think Natalie was seeking something new and adventurous in her life and then she met Keith and she thought of him as something she needed to figure out, as some sort of puzzle she needed to solve. Yet Keith wasn't simply a medical case needing to be fixed. He was a living human being that had some issues, but who doesn't? Maybe Natalie was digging too deep and maybe she wanted to save Keith, but the point is maybe Keith didn't need saving. Maybe he was a lost case and he already knew it. He didn't want to affect all the "healthy" people with him and his sick sense of humor, because he thought no one would accept him. So he got used to that lifestyle, that's why Natalie's reaction blew his mind so much. Because he didn't expect or plan this in a million years.

That's the living proof how life never ceases to disappoint us. Just when we think we've got it all figured out it strikes back to show who's the boss here. Because our short time spent on this little Earth is not about proving something to someone or anyone that we are worthy of anything or "accepting" our fate. It's about accepting that we must do what is in our power to make the best of that short period of time. No one guarantees if there's life after death, but if there is, I sure as hell don't want to look back at the old me and think: why the fuck did I do this for or why the fuck didn't I take a chance in that situation. We're all weird and we're all normal. That's a bit twisted, but that's how I take it. I take it that even the smallest and most insignificant encounters (like saying thank you to the cashier and see their response; or saying goodbye to the fitness buddy you just met while working out; or even bumping into someone) count, even the slightest and shortest eye contacts are a bit weird and awkward, but that is where our humanity shows. That is where we prove we are worthy because that's when we take it as it is. We accept life and the people around us. We live in some sort of symbiosis and I love to think of it that way. Because that's what it truly is about, besides money and power and all that bollocks. Sometimes I like to think that we are connected in some way. That all of this has sense which is that finish line when you're life is coming to an end. When all of it makes sense.

I also chose to believe in fate and that every thing or every person we come across in our life is good for something or will come in handy later in life. We need to absorb all the good stuff from everything we can, because that's what keeps us on our feet and what makes us feel better. When we accept that we can also learn to share that energy. So that's how I think Keith changed Natalie a lot and Natalie affected Keith's life more than she would ever acknowledge. When we meet a person we affect each other in such smallest ways we sometimes don't notice, but the other person sure does. But we don't mention or we just let it pass because we don't think of it of such importance, yet again it makes us who we are. We are so much more important to each other than we realize, that's why I try to keep cherishing friendships and all kinds of relationships as much as I can and try to keep my ego out of the way. I think communication on daily basis and healthy, steady relationships are what gets us through the day because those two represent the most stress through the day, and if you imagine that you have that sorted out, life would be a lot easier for you. The only sad thing is that we care just a little bit too less for relationships that we could actually make it work. We unintentionally neglect them because of many factors, but we too rarely acknowledge that good relationships bring us the true and authentic happiness in our lives, no matter how long, short, boring or exciting they might be. We all need a hand to hold.

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