That's a subject I could talk about until tomorrow. But since is Friday night and I didn't get invited to any parties or more specifically; I don't have friends to go with (everyone I know get drunk in first second and it's actually really annoying no matter how "cool" it is or should be), I can write about it as long as I want to. I actually don't care anymore if nobody's reading this, I feel a lot easier and realaxed if I just write down my problems, thinking and needs. While I write I also think about those things more accurately and, believe it or not, it helps me.
People are very different. Some are poor, rich, black, white, skinny, fat, small, short... But the most basic difference among all of them is in personality, opinions, acts, reactions and thinking generally. I find those things enormously interesting and that's the reason I'll study psychology. Because I love and hate, or I should rather say dislike, people at the same time. I find the facts about people and just every persons uniqueness so stunning, it's impossible to explain. Anyway, like I said before, people's most important difference is personality. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, every human being sees things differently. Everyone and everything has beauty, but not everyone can see it. We actually see beauty in people or things we choose and I personaly believe that there is one soul mate, a perfect match for each person on this planet, but I also believe that not everyone's meant to find them. I think everything happens for a reason. Each thing that happens in life to us leads to more perfect things. This "trick life gave us" is making us creative. We are forced to make decisions and those bring us to new people, new experiences, new realisations and realtionships. That's what makes life, you know. We make it; with our own decisions, with our heads. We make our own destiny, future and present. The past is history and everything sooner or later becomes past. But we shouldn't be afraid or ashamed of it. It's what we have done, something that seemed the smartest thing to do in that moment. And I also think there are no mistakes or such things. There are only lessons and something we later keep in mind.
Now let's get to the point. What I'm trying to say is that this life is petty amazing. It contains such extraordinary and unique people, which are different. Every person is different and superficial people don't get and accept the fact, that people have DIFFERENT opinions on things, different thoughts and reactions. And we shouldn't take it so seriously. I find it very sad and just disgusting how people, mostly teens treat people these days. People that are different from others, usually known as outsiders. Well, that's a pretty word isn't it? Just another expression society chose with which they'll humiliate the misfits. When we come to this point I get really mad. Here, where I live, everything and everyone's so screwed up, it's unbelievable. The choose such stupid, easy words and expressions to say something, always the same thing. They don't look deeper inside of a problem or matter, the second they see someone or something to talk about they do it. They don't think about consequences or effects they could leave on a certain person. People kill themselves because of that. Yes, you may say: "But why they take their opinions so serious?". It's because they're fragile and vulnerable. They feel watched all the time and when someone just looks to them they think there's something on them or they're dressed funny or even worse; that they look at them beacause they're so ugly. I belong to that group; I'm different, but I can pretend. And that's how I'm maintaining those "friendships" I have so far. Cause without them, I'd be all alone. If I would be able to talk and share things like I'd want to, tell them my true opinions, they'd think I'm crazy and weird. Because I'd talk long and deep and no one would understand, because I'd be too difficult for them. My thing is that I like to deepen into the problem or just any ordinary thing (like subjects I've discussed so far) and I like to help my "friends" as much as I can. I hate it when people talk simple, because it's easier that way. Then they wonder why some people (such as me) tell them they're shallow. Well, I'm sorry if that's just my honest opinion and the truth. It's funny when everyone wants you to tell the truth and when you do, they get offended. I think they shouldn't be, they should just say: "Okay, thanks for being honest," and accept other people's opinions. But whatever, why should I waste time with them.
Superficial people are happier. That's a fact; they don't analyze every single word, every conversation, every thing that has happened to them and they don't later wonder why they've acted the way they did and why things turned out the way they did. And that is overthinking and overthinking leads to stress and stress leads to depression. I don't know any people that are like me; I do all these stuff. But the thing also is, that those "easy" people get lovers easily. Of course, cause they have low standards. I'm not saying that's bad, everyone has their own standards and mine are... pretty high. I mean, my type of guys are models, I've found that out recently. I love tall boys with wide shoulders, who are skinny and are not too muscular, but they have abbs and biceps. I like boys with sexy jaws, full, soft lips, wide eyes, straight noses and nice eyebrows. You see, that is pretty scary and sometimes I think I'll never find anyone. It's just my way, I mean when I walk home from school I see many cute boys, that's not the problem. The problem is, that I'm not cute or attractive or just beautiful, you know. I'm below average. But that's, again, not my point of this subject.
Superficial people have kind of shallow feelings. Okay, that's really rude, let me put it that way; they have feelings, yes, like me and other sensitive beings. They just don't know that this is it, they don't know how to put it in words or describe it. They are easily satisfied with anything and I envy them this very much. I like things to be done to perfection and complete. There are many superficial people in my town. I'm surrounded by idiots and I can't wait to get out of this town. They're like fourteen (okay, I'm the same age, but we just don't feel the same, really) and act like they've been through years and years of tough, cruel and unfair life, so they have the right to be broken and sensitive (those kids are usually popular). But when I or any of others unpopular kids are broken, sad or just in a bad mood, it's not our right to be. It's not the same when we are sad, we feel it differently. I sometimes think I'm the only one that feels like this. And actually, I haven't met a person like me. Yet, I hope.
It's actually really funny how different we are. Isn't it somehow scary how every person you meet or just see on a bus or anywhere else is fighting their own battle, their own current problem they don't see a solution in. How they have some things on their mind or people when they listen to music on their way back home, just like me. How difficult also their life is. And most people often forget that. They're just being rude and without any compassion that they forget that those people have their worries too. That they have to battle for their life too, just like everyone else.
Those people are just arrogant and selfish, but that's actually what gets them through life. They became so heartless, cause I think they once cared too much. So this is the way they protect themselves. The best way to not get your heart broken is by pretending you don't have one. But yeah, it can be really annoying and rude sometimes. But neither you or me know what they've been through and the reason they are the way they are. It's a mystery and the person who'll get to solve it is truly a lucky person. But of course, that's a whole other kind of humans. Those are coldhearted and rude, but those sperficial people... You can't actually describe them, though. They're so fake, unoriginal, plain and just a copy of what society has made. High school made me realise that a lot of people change just to fit in. And that's kind of sad too. Those people are like really insecure and unsure of themselves, they need help too; every human being does once in a while. So I think we all shouldn't be so harsh on everyone, when life itself is already so hard to deal with. Why complicate stuff when we can all live in peace; not judging every person that passes you by, mocking out of people, gossip when you don't truly know their story and so many many more things. If we would all just realise that, the world would be really a much better place.
People are very different. Some are poor, rich, black, white, skinny, fat, small, short... But the most basic difference among all of them is in personality, opinions, acts, reactions and thinking generally. I find those things enormously interesting and that's the reason I'll study psychology. Because I love and hate, or I should rather say dislike, people at the same time. I find the facts about people and just every persons uniqueness so stunning, it's impossible to explain. Anyway, like I said before, people's most important difference is personality. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, every human being sees things differently. Everyone and everything has beauty, but not everyone can see it. We actually see beauty in people or things we choose and I personaly believe that there is one soul mate, a perfect match for each person on this planet, but I also believe that not everyone's meant to find them. I think everything happens for a reason. Each thing that happens in life to us leads to more perfect things. This "trick life gave us" is making us creative. We are forced to make decisions and those bring us to new people, new experiences, new realisations and realtionships. That's what makes life, you know. We make it; with our own decisions, with our heads. We make our own destiny, future and present. The past is history and everything sooner or later becomes past. But we shouldn't be afraid or ashamed of it. It's what we have done, something that seemed the smartest thing to do in that moment. And I also think there are no mistakes or such things. There are only lessons and something we later keep in mind.
Now let's get to the point. What I'm trying to say is that this life is petty amazing. It contains such extraordinary and unique people, which are different. Every person is different and superficial people don't get and accept the fact, that people have DIFFERENT opinions on things, different thoughts and reactions. And we shouldn't take it so seriously. I find it very sad and just disgusting how people, mostly teens treat people these days. People that are different from others, usually known as outsiders. Well, that's a pretty word isn't it? Just another expression society chose with which they'll humiliate the misfits. When we come to this point I get really mad. Here, where I live, everything and everyone's so screwed up, it's unbelievable. The choose such stupid, easy words and expressions to say something, always the same thing. They don't look deeper inside of a problem or matter, the second they see someone or something to talk about they do it. They don't think about consequences or effects they could leave on a certain person. People kill themselves because of that. Yes, you may say: "But why they take their opinions so serious?". It's because they're fragile and vulnerable. They feel watched all the time and when someone just looks to them they think there's something on them or they're dressed funny or even worse; that they look at them beacause they're so ugly. I belong to that group; I'm different, but I can pretend. And that's how I'm maintaining those "friendships" I have so far. Cause without them, I'd be all alone. If I would be able to talk and share things like I'd want to, tell them my true opinions, they'd think I'm crazy and weird. Because I'd talk long and deep and no one would understand, because I'd be too difficult for them. My thing is that I like to deepen into the problem or just any ordinary thing (like subjects I've discussed so far) and I like to help my "friends" as much as I can. I hate it when people talk simple, because it's easier that way. Then they wonder why some people (such as me) tell them they're shallow. Well, I'm sorry if that's just my honest opinion and the truth. It's funny when everyone wants you to tell the truth and when you do, they get offended. I think they shouldn't be, they should just say: "Okay, thanks for being honest," and accept other people's opinions. But whatever, why should I waste time with them.
Superficial people are happier. That's a fact; they don't analyze every single word, every conversation, every thing that has happened to them and they don't later wonder why they've acted the way they did and why things turned out the way they did. And that is overthinking and overthinking leads to stress and stress leads to depression. I don't know any people that are like me; I do all these stuff. But the thing also is, that those "easy" people get lovers easily. Of course, cause they have low standards. I'm not saying that's bad, everyone has their own standards and mine are... pretty high. I mean, my type of guys are models, I've found that out recently. I love tall boys with wide shoulders, who are skinny and are not too muscular, but they have abbs and biceps. I like boys with sexy jaws, full, soft lips, wide eyes, straight noses and nice eyebrows. You see, that is pretty scary and sometimes I think I'll never find anyone. It's just my way, I mean when I walk home from school I see many cute boys, that's not the problem. The problem is, that I'm not cute or attractive or just beautiful, you know. I'm below average. But that's, again, not my point of this subject.
Superficial people have kind of shallow feelings. Okay, that's really rude, let me put it that way; they have feelings, yes, like me and other sensitive beings. They just don't know that this is it, they don't know how to put it in words or describe it. They are easily satisfied with anything and I envy them this very much. I like things to be done to perfection and complete. There are many superficial people in my town. I'm surrounded by idiots and I can't wait to get out of this town. They're like fourteen (okay, I'm the same age, but we just don't feel the same, really) and act like they've been through years and years of tough, cruel and unfair life, so they have the right to be broken and sensitive (those kids are usually popular). But when I or any of others unpopular kids are broken, sad or just in a bad mood, it's not our right to be. It's not the same when we are sad, we feel it differently. I sometimes think I'm the only one that feels like this. And actually, I haven't met a person like me. Yet, I hope.
It's actually really funny how different we are. Isn't it somehow scary how every person you meet or just see on a bus or anywhere else is fighting their own battle, their own current problem they don't see a solution in. How they have some things on their mind or people when they listen to music on their way back home, just like me. How difficult also their life is. And most people often forget that. They're just being rude and without any compassion that they forget that those people have their worries too. That they have to battle for their life too, just like everyone else.
Those people are just arrogant and selfish, but that's actually what gets them through life. They became so heartless, cause I think they once cared too much. So this is the way they protect themselves. The best way to not get your heart broken is by pretending you don't have one. But yeah, it can be really annoying and rude sometimes. But neither you or me know what they've been through and the reason they are the way they are. It's a mystery and the person who'll get to solve it is truly a lucky person. But of course, that's a whole other kind of humans. Those are coldhearted and rude, but those sperficial people... You can't actually describe them, though. They're so fake, unoriginal, plain and just a copy of what society has made. High school made me realise that a lot of people change just to fit in. And that's kind of sad too. Those people are like really insecure and unsure of themselves, they need help too; every human being does once in a while. So I think we all shouldn't be so harsh on everyone, when life itself is already so hard to deal with. Why complicate stuff when we can all live in peace; not judging every person that passes you by, mocking out of people, gossip when you don't truly know their story and so many many more things. If we would all just realise that, the world would be really a much better place.
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