How Girls Act Around Guys: Now And Then

 So I just passed by these two pictures on Tumblr of three young women in the pose of like hitting on guys in two different eras. I find it really interesting since they were one after another and I kinda wanted to talk about that, discuss about how women are represented these days, what's the difference and/or is there any guilt in men, too. I mean, of course there is,but generations just change through time and there's nothing we can do about it. But do youngsters still have any common sense left and being classy, a gentleman? I hope some still exist. But it's not like doing it for old time's sake, it's more like for the dignity, honor, ethics, being moral and polite. When I'm polite some people misunderstand it for flirtation and it makes me really angry. Some teens find it odd holding doors for elder, buying flowers for your loved ones, dedicate some of your time just to hear about someone's feelings, you know the general stuff. I hate it how guys think that's bullshit if a girl wants something like that; they just call her a hopeless romantic or over-emotional and that if they continue to act like that no one will ever date them. Yet I still have that tiny little piece of hope left that there still are gentlemen left and the right girls will meet them. Cause even the most badass girls you see want to just hold hands sometimes, they wanna feel loved and you know being in the center of attention in the other way. That only one man has eyes on her and that he truly does feel the things he says he does.
 I'm also not saying that those unfair guys didn't exist back then. It's just why do people call those years golden days then? I know there must be a reason and I'm willing to find out and prove it. I know there's an explanation behind all this.

 I often wanna go back in time. Experience love in that time, eat food they were making back then, dance in short polka dot dress, wear stilettos and red lipstick. I know that's never gonna happen, but I'm also pleased with all these movies they make in those years (mostly 50's). I'm kinda taken back in time, like I'm reliving all these memories of someone else. See the world in different time. Oh, how I wish there'd be a time machine. I want to dance in the rain with a soldier in a dark coat and with nice hair, I want to drink good wine and listen to joyful music, I want to have two best friends with whom I'd go to the beach in old red swimwear and hit on handsome topless men with navy blue shorts and brown sandals, disheveled hair and sunglasses, holding a white shirt in one hand and a cigarette in the other. Am I being too nostalgic or is it normal for a hopeless teen to daydream about things she could never have? I am often carried away like that and it frightens me sometimes. Will I really only live in the past and eventually loose my mind? I hope not, though, but I can't help it. I can't help thinking that there is someone, a guy, who is exactly the same as me and that we are meant to meet one day. Not like tomorrow, but one day. One day that my life will change forever and all it will take is that one signal we shall both transmit and receive and we'll know. Right in that moment we shall both know that we are meant to be together. But that is really messed up, isn't it? To think that far for a 15-year-old? I'm afraid I'm getting my hopes too high and that I'll be disappointed later in life. I don't wanna live that life, I don't want to live in regret. I have faith in fate and that it'll send me a right guy in the right time. Cause in the end, we always get what we want, right? Life always takes care of us.

 I like to think one day a guy will take me to a cute date like the ones back in time. That someone will understand me and all my silly stuff about the past and how I want to relive it all. I know that won't happen me in the near future, because boys here are just dumb. They all act like Justin Bieber and want to be like him since he's wanted all over the world by every teen (except me and a few). They all wear those stupid snapbacks, baggy loose jeans and oversized Stussy shirts and Supra shoes all kinds of colors. I don't want to deal with those kiddies, I want a real man who will know how to pleasure a woman and take care of her. And it is not a problem only in men; girls are getting wilder and more open (in a negative meaning) than ever. They don't appreciate themselves anymore, yet they want a guy like (I mentioned before) every girl wants; a gentleman who will treat her right. But how on this bloody planet Earth will she get a guy with respect if she doesn't even respect herself? If she doesn't know the limits, if she doesn't know how far she can go and where the rules of good manners just have to be obeyed? For it is normal for guys that they fall for, you know, the "bad" girls with insufficient amount of already slutty clothes, badass behavior and pleasuring guys in a way that is not still appropriate to call them a prostitute. Yet, I also hate it how guys are allowed to think like that. I'm not being an obnoxious feminist who wants to put all women on top, but when you think about it it's kinda stereotypical. Like, I'd be totally inappropriate for a girl to say: "Oh my god, you could serve booze on that ass." That's a quote (or something like that) from one of my favorite movies (which I am going to write about, too) - P.S. I Love You. Now, of course it would not be acceptable for a nice and well-mannered girl to say such things. But we live in the world that we live in, so to make the best of it and doing the best means not hurting ourselves, we need to adapt to this lifestyle. And that does not mean accepting dumb things that guy say and fall for: it is exactly the opposite - following your heart and standing up for your believes and what you like, but ignoring the assholes and nowadays dumb bitches. You can't live a normal, happy life if you keep worrying about them, making space for them so they can be comfortable and you can't. It's just unacceptable. You have to be an egoist to some point in life. And I'm just saying that for your own good.
 Now back to the point: I know guys have many bad thoughts in their mind and that's what they usually say, too. They'll say which girl they wanna do and which will never have a boyfriend and they'll make fun of her, regardless of her broken heart (which cared too much). But there is, deep inside of them, a soft spot, a warm place, reserved only for a girl that is worth the effort. They usually don't know themselves which girl is the one. And that doesn't mean as the one they're going to marry and live happily ever after, bla bla bla. Nah, that means a girl that is worth of their trust, love and also friendship. Just a girl they'd take a bullet for. No matter if they get married or not, just a girl that is different from the others. I want that. I want that so badly and maybe I want it because I've watched too many romantic comedies or I've pictured myself and my newest crush as an everlasting high-school sweethearts. Maybe I am a hopeless romantic and have really messed up mind, but don't we eventually get what we want? I know life's too short to think that much ahead and deep into the meaning of life itself, but I want to dig deeper. I want someone to dig with.

 I know things like that are hard to find. Better yet, it is better we don't search for them at all. But it's all easier said than done. The only thing I seem to do these days is to search and look for love around every corner. Yet good things still do happen to me; like my first kiss - it was surely unexpected. I was in complete ecstasy, but I'll talk about that in another post. I really didn't expect that to happen, but it did. It's funny how when we overthink every single thing that we wish to happen in the future, how we try to predict every little step, it usually happens unexpected and totally unplanned. It's the same with love, it's just some people easier let loose then others. It's not a flaw, I think, or anything. I hope no one thinks of it that way. I think it is better not to rush things or if you do, just take it slowly and try to enjoy every second of it. Anyway, I just hope I'll soon find someone worth digging with.