Significant Revelations of Insignificant Minds

 I'm done. I'm so done. All this pressure; school, parents, swimming and everything else. It's just unbearable. I can't do this anymore. I wish I could just stop time for a while, clear my head, have some sleep and then maybe carry on. I wanna fly away somewhere, with no worries, with no obligations. Just to relax. I want to meet new people. I'm tired of all this same routine every single day, I'm bored of all the same people with the same acts who don't care about me. Who only care about their stupid asses, what I wish I was able to. They all seem to enjoy life in some way the like it, while I'm still figuring out what to do with myself and my life. I don't want to feel anything anymore, cause I always get to attached and care to much about someone who's not returning me love.    I feel awful. In my head's bumping, I feel really exhausted although I do nothing else then go to practice in the morning. My eyes are heavy and sleepy, but I...

 Now, I really feel guilty for not writing regularly, but I simply can't find any time. All the exams and practices... It's just really exhausting. I'm really sorry.  Anyway, So I made a choice, that one day in every month I'll (or you can comment in any of my posts) pick a subject and write about it. I think it's important that we chose themes, we want to talk about, that we need to clear some things we were long craving to talk about.  And this time I chose a subject I'm sure all of us has been through or is familiar with it. And I also chose it because Christmas is coming and I'm sure you all want to be around family, forget about the problems you've had through the year and just enjoy this special time.  Forgiving. What is the first thing that pops in to your mind when hearing this word? Do you think of a special person you forgave for a silly thing but it's still important to you and haven't really moved on? Did you forgave them, not be...

 I read someone's answer on Formspring on what love means to her. And I got thinking. What is love? How do we define it? How do we feel it?  For me, love is the most beautiful and painful feeling you can feel. I have experienced real love. I'd have never thought that it would visit me so early. But it did. And it didn't turned out well. Because love isn't always just about perfect couples and sweet talks and cuddling and stuff like that. Love is sacrifice, love is when someone elses happiness is your happiness. And here comes my story. Jan and me at national championship 2006/7 (we won, yay)   We met six years ago on a national swimming championship. His and my club stayed in a same hotel. It was Thursday evening when my eyes first saw his beautiful, divine face. I didn't know I was already in love. His club had dinner across the dining hall and my on the other side. But we kept looking at each other. Every second. We couldn't took our eyes of eac...

 December. Month of love, happiness, care and forgivness. And most important: time to make your last, unfinished wishes and golds come true. Although the world will end in 19 days. I don't believe in it, do you? I mean, some people really overreact when they bought underground homes for like at least one million dollars and spent all their belongings. I don't know, I just think we shouldn't be so naive and believe everything we see on TV or read in newspaper.  Anyway, December is so magical to me. Just all the lights, Christmas spirit everywhere, the smell of mulled wine and hot chocolate and just joy in every corner you look, it overwhelmes me. And plus; I think there's no real December without snow. In Slovenia last year, it was so empty and sad without snow. It wasn't real Christmas. Now it's snowing and it must have reached over 10cm. I hope days now will be cold enough so the snow won't melt right away.  I just love December. I haven't actually b...