I've written about turning your dreams into reality before and I won't bullshit all over this subject again. This time I want to present something different. Something that is more than just dreams. Because dreams only last for a night, right? I've never mentioned before that only dreams are not enough. Knowing what you want in life and what you have to do is truly a privilege you should never let go of, but actually making them true ... That's the complicated part. We all know dreams are nice and there are many quotes encouraging us to pursue them, not letting them go. For dreams are the only thing that matters in life. The only one thing that keeps us on our feet. I cans say that from personal experiences. When I was still swimming, I was working my ass off for the titles I won. For the records I broken and still hold. But you know what guided me all along? Knowing the feeling of triumph, of victory. The warmth that overcomes your body when you see your name on the top of the display. I swear those were the times of my life. And I know nothing in my life or in my future, could come near this kind of feeling. Because sport dreams or dreams of an athletes growing into something more, is something special. Something different, but not necessarily more important or significant. It's just that (I'm saying this as a former athlete) you really have to have guts for this.
Sport is and always will be something higher, something admirable and glorious. I am forever thankful for the ability to experience that. For the feelings I got to feel and the people I got to meet. Because without them, I don't think I could ever managed to get as far as I did. That's another part, hidden behind the shiny, appealing word 'dreams'. A part not many know. But the ones who do, also know that it is something special and that it takes time and honest dedication to come that far, as far as you want to. It's hard for me to look back and not feel the pain inside my chest and throat and just smile. Because I miss that. I crave for the smell of chlorine and the rush and the cheering. But I feel that if I let that out one day, even if through writing, it'll help me get over it. My parents say 'Never say never' and I'm not saying a full and determined 'no'. It's just that people change and while we change, we grow apart from things we once loved. But I will always love swimming. It was my number one passion, something I was truly good at. The best thing about me being a part of it? I can say all the trophies and victories and gold medals. But to be truly honest? The look on my parents' face and on my coach's face. Making them proud. This is the part I will never forget. That was the part I was living for.
Oh god, and now I'm crying! Tears rushed up in my eyes as I was finishing the last paragraph. I couldn't really hold it inside me. I'm kind of a perfect example of shattered dreams. I once thought I'd go to the Olmypics. I had a dream. An honest one I was prepared to work my butt off. But then the injury came and I won't lie about losing faith in my abilities and dreams. It was all gone. I first didn't realize that I will never be able to swim again without pain aching in my shoulder, I just continued with my life. Then after some more examinations the truth hit me. I was devastated for quite some time, still am, to be honest. When you live for something for eight years, you can't just simply let go of it. But after all, I am proud of myself for having a dream, an ambition that lead me through my swimming career, if I can call it so. Many people don't know what to do with their lives and it's sad to think that they're lost and have no one to turn to. But it's alright. It's normal to feel lost and not knowing which way to turn. I think a good comfort is that some might have it worse. That you're not alone. Maybe that won't make your problem disappear, but it can help. When you're facing a crossroad and both directions are similar or have the same importance, I think you just want to collapse and burst in tears. And when you look around, there's no one to be there for you. No one to fall into their arms to tell you everything's going to be alright. Because right in that moment of doubt, when feeling like giving up, you just need someone to tell you this. And maybe those few words from a special person can fix all your problems and maybe even clarify your point of view on the world.
There are so many other things hidden behind all that perception of following your dreams. It's not that simple. I mean, you should take it that way, I am not in you way. It's just that sometimes we underestimate the road we're about to go on. Sometimes it's a bumpy ride and it can get you out of your mind in an instant. Because some dreams are easier to catch, some a bit harder. But they all require hard work and dedication and the will to get there. To reach for the moon itself. There's a beautiful quote from Norman Vincent Peale: "Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars." I used this quote for my yearbook picture in primary school, because I found it so inspiring and realistic. I wanted also to encourage kids, that will be reading that yearbook, to to whatever they wish to do, whatever makes them happy. Reach for the sky. We could use some of that. Positive vibe is always welcomed, especially in such institutions.
That's kinda the problem with the the educational institutions these days. I'm sure I've pointed out a few crucial problems with the society in my subject about school and the system, which was the first post published in February. Anyway, that's also one of the issues youngsters have to deal with. We all need comfort, we all crave to hear nice words from someone and maybe the pain goes away. But even if doesn't, does it really matter? All it matters is that you show you care. School should put more emphasis on the way how kids actually develop. Not that they have some sort of 'social workers' to whom only "problematic" kids go to. I really needed someone to talk to after breaking off with swimming and I told my mum I wanted to go to my school social worker, because she's there to deal with things like that. But she told me not to go (I mean she didn't forbid me or anything) or rather gave me a motherly advice to not go. And you know what was the reason behind her holding me back? She said that these people don't listen, like they should. They don't let you speak and let you spit out all your demons and fears, like they should let you. All they do is search for some stupid diagnosis to tell you what's wrong with you, when often all you need is someone to talk. And they already search for a 'medical' explanation behind your behavior. It's a shame things like that are a common thing in these societies. I went anyway and turned out she was actually really sweet. But my mum knew what she was talking about and I've realized it as well.
It's hard to keep on going with your dreams as your guide in this cruel world that shows nothing but disrespect towards you and is holding you back on your every move. But I guess that's what makes the final achievement and triumph even more so sweet and glorious. They say everything comes to those who wait, but isn't it all hundred times more secure if you get off your ass and get shit done? I know it's scary, but you get that much more respect. You have this feeling inside you, the free and clear conscience that is letting you be. Just imagine, having an amazing opportunity coming by and you'll just let it slide? Okay, that was kinda overreacted. I know we all wait for the opportunity and I'm sure none of us would let go of it once it would come across our path. It's just that these days I see more and more people hesitating on making their dreams come true. And I can't blame them, to be honest. The things that are surrounding us just don't give you that much hope anymore, as they might used to. You felt like you have all the doors open and nothing can stop you. Guess what? It's still exactly the same, it's the world, or better yet the society that's changed. It's also changed the way we think and turned us into shy cowards. We are the community and we must now get aware of that. Aware of the fact that we consist of young people who are going to be the next ruling generation. We might as well give them a good example to look at, don't you agree?
This world is cruel, without doubt. But then you think of your role models and think how they've managed to pull this off so well and successfully? What was their guiding rule, their motto, their hidden source of strength? That's what fan girls wonder all their lives long ... I promise I won't get emotional and stuff, this was the last time. But your idols, your celebrity crushes and dream men truly make you wonder and you do want to look up to them, that's why they're called role models. But it is not their job to be so. Their job is, I don't know, singing or acting or stuff like that. They didn't sign up for being good role models for fourteen years old girls who freak out at every word they speak (I'm no different when it comes to Tom and Benny, but it's not the same!). There's this huge fuss going on about Miley and Justin being a bad role models for the kids. I agree that maybe they've made some mistakes and so on. But nowhere, seriously nowhere, says that they should make this and that kind of type of music so it'll be appropriate for the children. I already accepted that they've grown up and so does their work. Their work is their reflection of what they feel and if Miley feels like sucking dicks, that's really my last concern and, so to speak, hers as well. And don't get me wrong, I'm not her 'fan' or anything or defending her. I'm just laying the cards on the table. True, maybe she has to watch out for her public image, like every celebrity has. And some fans defending Justin's actions and his arrest for DUI for him being 19 ... That's just pathetic. Saying he's under pressure and stuff. We can take a perfect example of another 19-year-old boy who is just as famous as him, if not more. Harry Styles. I used to have huge crush on him a few years back, but I think it was nothing more than just a crush on the member of a fresh new boy band. We've all been through that.
Anyway, but we can admire them for how they deal with things. Their way of thinking. I love it when my Tom quoted Confusius: "You have two lives. The second one begins when you realize you only have one." He is so intelligent and educated, he makes me wanna crawl to him and ask him endless questions. So many things I wanna learn about him; from how he started to discover his talent and his parents, to how he looks on life and how he faces daily challenges and the pressure of the worldwide fame. He gives me goosebumps every time he speaks and gives one of those famous chuckles of his. Like, I just wanna reach for his hand and let him show me this beautiful world through his eyes.
But mostly, we face this world alone. Only with our courage and dreams left by our side. When everyone leaves you, when everyone doubts you, that's the moment you know you have to try and work harder. That is the crucial point. Because if you work your ass of then, you'll enjoy the everlasting joy of winning later. So then it's all up to you; you either work really hard for some time (to be honest, you always have to work nonstop, so I won't sell you this bullshit) and gain really much or just give up, because of the fear of failing? You'll never know what's waiting for you on the other side if you never try. You have to enjoy every day as a new challenge, try and test yourself. Test your boundaries and see what happens. See every day as an opportunity to do something good for yourself. Life is a battlefield and nobody gets out alive, but the best you can do is fight for your country, therefore yourself and your beliefs. Because what do you have to lose? Again, I'll add one of my favorite quotes from the loveliest human being, Tom Hiddleston: "Love your life. Because your life is what you have to give." Couldn't agree with you more on this one, Tom.
(C) Every artwork used is from Tumblr
Sport is and always will be something higher, something admirable and glorious. I am forever thankful for the ability to experience that. For the feelings I got to feel and the people I got to meet. Because without them, I don't think I could ever managed to get as far as I did. That's another part, hidden behind the shiny, appealing word 'dreams'. A part not many know. But the ones who do, also know that it is something special and that it takes time and honest dedication to come that far, as far as you want to. It's hard for me to look back and not feel the pain inside my chest and throat and just smile. Because I miss that. I crave for the smell of chlorine and the rush and the cheering. But I feel that if I let that out one day, even if through writing, it'll help me get over it. My parents say 'Never say never' and I'm not saying a full and determined 'no'. It's just that people change and while we change, we grow apart from things we once loved. But I will always love swimming. It was my number one passion, something I was truly good at. The best thing about me being a part of it? I can say all the trophies and victories and gold medals. But to be truly honest? The look on my parents' face and on my coach's face. Making them proud. This is the part I will never forget. That was the part I was living for.
Oh god, and now I'm crying! Tears rushed up in my eyes as I was finishing the last paragraph. I couldn't really hold it inside me. I'm kind of a perfect example of shattered dreams. I once thought I'd go to the Olmypics. I had a dream. An honest one I was prepared to work my butt off. But then the injury came and I won't lie about losing faith in my abilities and dreams. It was all gone. I first didn't realize that I will never be able to swim again without pain aching in my shoulder, I just continued with my life. Then after some more examinations the truth hit me. I was devastated for quite some time, still am, to be honest. When you live for something for eight years, you can't just simply let go of it. But after all, I am proud of myself for having a dream, an ambition that lead me through my swimming career, if I can call it so. Many people don't know what to do with their lives and it's sad to think that they're lost and have no one to turn to. But it's alright. It's normal to feel lost and not knowing which way to turn. I think a good comfort is that some might have it worse. That you're not alone. Maybe that won't make your problem disappear, but it can help. When you're facing a crossroad and both directions are similar or have the same importance, I think you just want to collapse and burst in tears. And when you look around, there's no one to be there for you. No one to fall into their arms to tell you everything's going to be alright. Because right in that moment of doubt, when feeling like giving up, you just need someone to tell you this. And maybe those few words from a special person can fix all your problems and maybe even clarify your point of view on the world.There are so many other things hidden behind all that perception of following your dreams. It's not that simple. I mean, you should take it that way, I am not in you way. It's just that sometimes we underestimate the road we're about to go on. Sometimes it's a bumpy ride and it can get you out of your mind in an instant. Because some dreams are easier to catch, some a bit harder. But they all require hard work and dedication and the will to get there. To reach for the moon itself. There's a beautiful quote from Norman Vincent Peale: "Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars." I used this quote for my yearbook picture in primary school, because I found it so inspiring and realistic. I wanted also to encourage kids, that will be reading that yearbook, to to whatever they wish to do, whatever makes them happy. Reach for the sky. We could use some of that. Positive vibe is always welcomed, especially in such institutions.
That's kinda the problem with the the educational institutions these days. I'm sure I've pointed out a few crucial problems with the society in my subject about school and the system, which was the first post published in February. Anyway, that's also one of the issues youngsters have to deal with. We all need comfort, we all crave to hear nice words from someone and maybe the pain goes away. But even if doesn't, does it really matter? All it matters is that you show you care. School should put more emphasis on the way how kids actually develop. Not that they have some sort of 'social workers' to whom only "problematic" kids go to. I really needed someone to talk to after breaking off with swimming and I told my mum I wanted to go to my school social worker, because she's there to deal with things like that. But she told me not to go (I mean she didn't forbid me or anything) or rather gave me a motherly advice to not go. And you know what was the reason behind her holding me back? She said that these people don't listen, like they should. They don't let you speak and let you spit out all your demons and fears, like they should let you. All they do is search for some stupid diagnosis to tell you what's wrong with you, when often all you need is someone to talk. And they already search for a 'medical' explanation behind your behavior. It's a shame things like that are a common thing in these societies. I went anyway and turned out she was actually really sweet. But my mum knew what she was talking about and I've realized it as well.
It's hard to keep on going with your dreams as your guide in this cruel world that shows nothing but disrespect towards you and is holding you back on your every move. But I guess that's what makes the final achievement and triumph even more so sweet and glorious. They say everything comes to those who wait, but isn't it all hundred times more secure if you get off your ass and get shit done? I know it's scary, but you get that much more respect. You have this feeling inside you, the free and clear conscience that is letting you be. Just imagine, having an amazing opportunity coming by and you'll just let it slide? Okay, that was kinda overreacted. I know we all wait for the opportunity and I'm sure none of us would let go of it once it would come across our path. It's just that these days I see more and more people hesitating on making their dreams come true. And I can't blame them, to be honest. The things that are surrounding us just don't give you that much hope anymore, as they might used to. You felt like you have all the doors open and nothing can stop you. Guess what? It's still exactly the same, it's the world, or better yet the society that's changed. It's also changed the way we think and turned us into shy cowards. We are the community and we must now get aware of that. Aware of the fact that we consist of young people who are going to be the next ruling generation. We might as well give them a good example to look at, don't you agree?This world is cruel, without doubt. But then you think of your role models and think how they've managed to pull this off so well and successfully? What was their guiding rule, their motto, their hidden source of strength? That's what fan girls wonder all their lives long ... I promise I won't get emotional and stuff, this was the last time. But your idols, your celebrity crushes and dream men truly make you wonder and you do want to look up to them, that's why they're called role models. But it is not their job to be so. Their job is, I don't know, singing or acting or stuff like that. They didn't sign up for being good role models for fourteen years old girls who freak out at every word they speak (I'm no different when it comes to Tom and Benny, but it's not the same!). There's this huge fuss going on about Miley and Justin being a bad role models for the kids. I agree that maybe they've made some mistakes and so on. But nowhere, seriously nowhere, says that they should make this and that kind of type of music so it'll be appropriate for the children. I already accepted that they've grown up and so does their work. Their work is their reflection of what they feel and if Miley feels like sucking dicks, that's really my last concern and, so to speak, hers as well. And don't get me wrong, I'm not her 'fan' or anything or defending her. I'm just laying the cards on the table. True, maybe she has to watch out for her public image, like every celebrity has. And some fans defending Justin's actions and his arrest for DUI for him being 19 ... That's just pathetic. Saying he's under pressure and stuff. We can take a perfect example of another 19-year-old boy who is just as famous as him, if not more. Harry Styles. I used to have huge crush on him a few years back, but I think it was nothing more than just a crush on the member of a fresh new boy band. We've all been through that.
Anyway, but we can admire them for how they deal with things. Their way of thinking. I love it when my Tom quoted Confusius: "You have two lives. The second one begins when you realize you only have one." He is so intelligent and educated, he makes me wanna crawl to him and ask him endless questions. So many things I wanna learn about him; from how he started to discover his talent and his parents, to how he looks on life and how he faces daily challenges and the pressure of the worldwide fame. He gives me goosebumps every time he speaks and gives one of those famous chuckles of his. Like, I just wanna reach for his hand and let him show me this beautiful world through his eyes.
But mostly, we face this world alone. Only with our courage and dreams left by our side. When everyone leaves you, when everyone doubts you, that's the moment you know you have to try and work harder. That is the crucial point. Because if you work your ass of then, you'll enjoy the everlasting joy of winning later. So then it's all up to you; you either work really hard for some time (to be honest, you always have to work nonstop, so I won't sell you this bullshit) and gain really much or just give up, because of the fear of failing? You'll never know what's waiting for you on the other side if you never try. You have to enjoy every day as a new challenge, try and test yourself. Test your boundaries and see what happens. See every day as an opportunity to do something good for yourself. Life is a battlefield and nobody gets out alive, but the best you can do is fight for your country, therefore yourself and your beliefs. Because what do you have to lose? Again, I'll add one of my favorite quotes from the loveliest human being, Tom Hiddleston: "Love your life. Because your life is what you have to give." Couldn't agree with you more on this one, Tom.
(C) Every artwork used is from Tumblr
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