Significant Revelations of Insignificant Minds

 More and more I feel like I don't belong here, in this hell called school. It's not like I'm unwanted in society, it's more like how I'm being somehow ignored, but not directly. I can still laugh with my girl friends and have a good time at school breakes, but when we like have a free hour or we just don't do anything in class, I can feel how I don't fit in. I then realise how different I am, or how every individual is different. But some girls, most of them actually, can still find something in common, something that makes them more wanted, that makes them popular and attractive. They're all the same, although I still believe everyone's special in some way. But it's like they all feel the same about that "love" they think they know what it is, they have opinions on things, same taste in music, same behaviour. And I'm so sick of it. So sick of everybody pretending, not showing their real feelings then pitying themselves later. And ...

 Thank god! Sun is shining, birds are singing, leaves are peeking underneath the dried branches and I must say my mood has never been better. I feel complete when I'm walking home, sunshine is blinding me and wind is forcing against me. I can actually feel spring coming! The saffrons are already here and it's so cute to see all those tiny primroses lying on the grass. Life is actually so much better in spring or summer, it feels like everything's possible. I love that feeling, feeling you can do anything, just anything you wish for. I wish I could be like that more often. And I really feel more confident and filled with energy on days like this.  And that kind of energy can be felt by/on other people too. Everybody seems more relaxed and calm, even though we, kids, have so much to do in school. Teachers are like breathing around our necks, giving us millions of tests and it's really annoying. But still; it is all much less stressful when you walk out of school and fee...

 As you probably heard, Justin Bieber came to Wien last night and had a concert. I know many people which went to the concert and their dreams came true. I must say I was really surprised by the way everything went. I mean I wasn't there, but I could even feel the adrenaline and the rush, hear the screaming fans... I made a decision that I must go next year.  Anyway, I think people and the media are being way to harsh on him. I mean, he IS a teenager and he WILL smoke pot and I think you won't be able to take that away from him, that kind of thinking. He's gonna do what he wants to do, except doing anything that will offend his beliebers and making them sad. I truly believe he has a great heart and that he's sweet and sensitive like anybody can be. Sometimes you just gotta look through all of the person's mistakes and realise that he's just a human too. We all make mistakes but when you're a world-known celebrity it's way to "worse" to do tha...

 There are so many things out there, not discovered yet, fresh, untouched and innocent. If you have that little wildness, excitement inside you and/or you're anxious to know what's outside your comfort zone, what's life and what does it offer, you should travel and explore the world, while it's still good and healthy.  And just to think to go somewhere new is like a breath of fresh air to your mind. To go exploring somewhere you've never been, where you don't know any people and be yourself and just let yourself go. To discover new cultures and habits of new people you meet, it can like completely change your life. Because this whole world is just a giant book. And if you don't go explore and having fun, you're just reading the first page, judging the book by its cover. You see nothing, yet complain why it is the way it is. Maybe on the other side of the world, there is a life that is meant and right for you. But you will never know. I've been to s...

 Although each family is different, has its mistakes and difficulties, it's something we all need. We all need a place to runaway from everything and sometimes that 'everything' might be even home. But in the end, when we don't have any power left and need a shelter, I think family is there for us. Again, not all are like that. I know many, too many, people who have issues, really big ones, inside their houses. They fight, argue and yell. It's no shelter at all and it doesn't make you feel any better either. Sometimes it just makes everything worse. But many families are different. Any has problems. But I think each and every one is resolvable. But it takes will, courage and eating your pride even at times when you think, when it seems you're the one who's right. To keep good relations in family, you need determination and love.  Again; there are families that have really bad problems. And far to less people care about it. We all only care about our as...

 Life is so dreary without him, it's like I'm missing something, something is missing from me. A piece of me. I just can't live without him, I don't want to. I don't know when exactly they leave, I only know they leave this year. But more and more people talk something about them, about their leaving, more I'm thinking about it, more I'm getting anxious to do something about my love for him. More I'm getting closer to the day when he leaves and that might even be tomorrow. And if at least I couldn't kiss him, I'm gonna write him a letter and make sure he gets it. Because I don't wanna miss that chance to tell him, even though just on paper. I have to, I have this sorrow in me that won't get out, like I'll have conscience if I won't tell him somehow. I've never ever felt anything even close like this, everything's simple and achievable when I'm around him, even if we don't talk. Just being near him, feel his warmth ...