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The big realisation

12:02 p.m. That was the time I realised today that if we're happy or in a good mood we see things and people in a whole other perspective. Life itself isn't hard at all. If just stop for a second and look around, this life and what you've given is pretty amazing. It's just all about how WE see life and in which mood we are.
 Seriously, you may think it really doesn't matter, but it does. You maybe don't even realise it how important this is. It's all up to us and how we decide to see the world. Some people for instance are optimists and kind of always see life in a bright light. Then on the other hand, some people don't even see a meaning in life. But it's actually all the same in real life. It's all in out brain how we see things, not only life and world itself but people and things too.

Now, I know it's much easier to say things then actually do them and that it's much, much easier to "give up" than open up and talk to someone. Especially in these days when you never really know who you can trust.
 You see, I'm with this people (schoolmates) five hours from monday to friday nine years now. I see them changing everyday so fast. It's almost unbelievable how time flies by. I noticed they've changed in the way you can't trust them too. No one respects themselves anymore, no one respects anyone and their trust. It's also very sad to see your once "best friends" changing for society. Just to be popular, just so they'd be "noticed". I mean, yeah, they will get noticed. But what easy comes easy goes. So what's the point? What's the point of having fake friends (pretending to care, to love you...) for a short period of time and then they leave you? Rather than having real friends (maybe not so popular) for life? I just don get it. I don't get anything here anymore. But you see, that's how the world works today. Can you see the logic in this example (an example from real life, unfortunately): one guy, a good guy, falls into hands of the wrong company and they take him downtown to meet some real guys, the taste of real life. So suddenly this good guy becomes a peasant. And that peasant is now so popular (and of course enjoys in that), he can from now on decides who's ugly and who's beautiful, who has the right to do this and that, who can speaks for themselves and who is allowed to say their opinion out loud. Now he has the right to play with thousands of girls' hearts. From now on, that's normal.
 So please, can you tell me if you see the logic here? No, me neither.

 Anyway, this outrageous way of life is now overcoming the state like a virus. It's becoming inevitable. Just something you can't ignore. And the worst part of all this is watching other girls (and boys) falling for this. Seeing them how naive and stupid some people are. They actually want to change themselves to idealize the "terms and conditions" of society's idea of perfection. This is sick. I mean, all those nice girls who used to be so independent, strong and themselves are now succumbing under the pressure of this "way of life". No, it's not the way of life either. I can't even find a right word for that, it's just sick. They're not those girls who were thinking with their own head anymore. Now it's popular to have bad grades and curse at teacher. But hey, this attitude and swag (they think they've got it, but I just call it fake) isn't going to pay your bills in ten years, you know. They've become easy girls. They hook up with every guy they meet then wonder how's everyone playing with their heart. They don't have any respect left for themselves. They're not even virgins anymore. At fucking 13, cmon. It makes me throw up.

 You're probably wondering why I just don't go tell them that, right? Well you see, the things is they won't listen and they'll just deny it and so on. I think it's a waste of time. I just had to write it down here, cause I need to let it out somewhere. I think blog is the perfect way of expressing yourself out. 

 So, I have at least one good news: I'm going on the medical examination on Thursday already! I mean that means they'll find out what's wrong with my arm and I'll go swim sooner! Or if the muscle is torn then I won't be swimming for next two months... But hey, let's be positive! I think it's nothing worse and that I'll be back in the pool soon. And of course to see my love :)

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