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 Just got home from cinema watching 007 Skyfall. I am speechless. It was intense and exciting through the whole story, it really felt like you were there. With two words; simply awesome.

 Anyway, it was good day today I guess. I studied math and a bit of french today and I was doing quite good actually. But it's still hard. Even though I'm still in primary school. I'm kind of less organised than when I had trainings. I hardly concentrated on anything and keep it up. But later was ok.

 Also, today we celebrated my brother's 19th birthday! I really love him. He is very special. I can trust him anything knowing, he won't tell a soul. He's the only person who will tell you the whole truth, who isn't someone who will succombe under the pressure of society. He'll stay true to himself no matter what. Oh god, what would I do without him? He isn't one of those teenagers who will, I don't know, go out every night, get drunk, smoke weed and stuff. He's more calm and mature though. He does go out, of course. But he has right friends, friends who are just like him; who like the same stuff, are lazy and don't judge. That's very important, actually I think the most important thing in friendship. Not judging.
 For me, friendship is about excepting someone who they are and letting them into your life, knowing you can trust them. I really don't get those "friends" these days. One girl says to another: "I love you so much, forever, omg. No one could replace you, you're my fav person," and so on. And then, they got tell it to ten other people. I mean, where's the logic? I think friendship isn't about how many friends you got, but how close you are to them. It isn't about the number, but they way you do things together, the way you have inside jokes with them. And those are the things I'll never know... You see, I don't really have a best friend. They're all big hypocrites. They say things they don't mean. Why? Why do they do that? But still, of course, I'd do anything for them. I'd be there for them no matter what. And why? That's what I ask myself the whole time. I think that's just who I am, I was born with that. To help people sort they're things out. I hate people in general, yet I still find them endlessly interesting.

 Yep, that's it. That's the whole truth. I really really hate people (except my family and maybe some exceptions). I hate how they're always judging, how they do grimaces when you say something unusual, something they're not used to or it's kind of taboo to them. How they hate awkward moments, when I don't really notice them. It's just nice, warm silence. Everybody's taking life and other people too serious about how people are. They just are. Because in that, and only that, we are different. And those people who are always judging are just another copy of the society's new project. That's the whole secret.
 But yes, like I said before, I also kind of "love" people. I don't mean that I adore them or worship them, but... They're interesting to me. All their girmaces I mentioned above when they feel something. Everyone does it differently, everyone has their special thing about them. That's what made me fall in "love" with them. It's stupid. But no, actually. I've found out what I want to do in life. Like some people are interested in, I don't know, medicine or business, I'm in people. And that's what I want to do in life. Study people and be a great psychologist. And I want to move in NYC and find an extraordinary man which I will never get tired. That's kind of my plan :) 

Good night!




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